I'm trying to just hang back and wait and see. I'm succeeding mostly. Been at this for a while, and I'm getting better at it.

During the last several R talks we've had, my W told me she still oves me, so I'd be surprised to get something like "I never loved you." We've had a great time lately, and she's been treating me with more affection than I've gotten in the past five years. She's also been giving me "Remember when..." stories about our past, good happy stories, including ones about sex.

Would be quite a 180 for her to drop the final bomb on me, but I'm so numb from this whole ride, I don't know what to expect.

Trying to keep my guard up.