I reckon you're right. I should know that if I apologize that she won't come running back in Blackrook's arms hugging and kissing just like on her favorite show Friends. I can only hope. There's a scene from a movie called Raising Arizona where the wife said she didn't want her man again. He goes to sleep and dreams of him and her old with a bunch of children and grandchildren all around them and knew it would be ok. Well, I had a dream that I was doing taxes. I looked at the form dated 2-12-06 and notice my name and my w and we filed married.
I will still have to think of a way to get through to her and aknowledge the hurt that I caused. I just don't have a clue right now as to how to do that. OVer the past few days, I've begun to face my sorrow and guilt over this situation and it's hard. I do my best thinking either flying or driving. I haven't flown in awhile so I drive with the radio off. I've done some reflection and know what I've done, 98% not intentionally has damaged her once open heart.
I will learn how to face my fears too. I guess the worst thing she can do is D me, she can't eat me. The law won't allow that. The thought of a D hurts like heck. Another think I'll have to deal with.
