I'm going to write more later but just wanted to check in. My week has been interesting to say the least as far as the relationship goes. As far as I go...I'm sick as a dog...sick, sick, sick. Coughing like a trucker w/ a 3 pack a day habit and feel a bit like I got run over by the trucker. LOL. Daughter is in the same boat and I've actually stayed home the past two days with her and worked from here. We've just been miserable.
I just took my nightly dose of "knock me out so I don't cough up a lung in my sleep" medicine. I am already getting loopy and only took it 10 min ago. Just wanted to tell you I've beent thinking about you cuz I knew you were going to have that session. I am just so suprised that divorce papers haven't even been filed by her yet and she wants to tell the kids. Why even tell the kids if the ball isn't really rolling yet. I know that they are keenly aware of what's going on..but...I don't know. What if there is still a chance that you two can work this out. It's not over till it's over and even though she says it's over, she hasn't filed yet...very odd.
Anyway, I have so much to say to you and I can't hardly get a coherant sentance typed. Just wanted you to know that I'm here for you and I'm praying for you.
Write more tomorrow....try to stay calm and do your best to get to a peaceful place. Put some music on Youtube and put ear phones on...lean back in your chair and just float. It does wonders for ya. Try a song called "City Lights" by Sara Barallies ..her live version from the Filmore. LOL. BTW..never told you but I'm a music freak...I mean it's my complete salvation. Try, it..Youtube.com...you'll be in a different mindset in hours. Just get lost in some music!!
BIGGEST HUGS to you my buddy!!!
Gina B
M 43 H 34 D 4 H asked for D on 6/21/09:1st D mediation 7/27;D says he wants to try 8/18; *I will stumble, I will fall down but I will not be moved.(N.Grant)
