FWIW, I didn't start to really DB until I got served D papers and my wife moved out. It wasn't what I wanted either then you realise you got to play the hand you are dealt. You can handle it.
Cheers
ps have one for me tonight.
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.