I completely hear you. I was feeliing that way this morning cause once again H was out partying last night while I am home taking care of our S. Not that I necessarily want to be out partying, but still, not fair. Actually, what made me feel stronger was your response to me - about how somewhere behind all these hurtful actions are the men we love (and I thik this extends beyond just depression) and it's worth the fight. No it's not fair that they are putting us thru this and that they don't and may never truely understand how much this has affected us, but I've just come to the realization this monrning, that no matter what, at the end of the day, I can live with and be happy with myself by knowing that I have tried everything possible to save my family. (and hopes that he has to live with the guilt that he hasn't - ok the last part was a little vengeful, but still... haha).
So just stay strong. I know you are upset about having that breakdown with him, but just keep on going. I think that having one more discussion about your reunion would be good, but if he still resists, I think you should just let it go. That's one thing I struggle with - I just want to keep pushing the issue, but of course, that never ends well.
Enjoy the pizza tonight (& little rest from S. Little boys sure are busy, huh?! Oh, but so full of love! =D )
Me 27; H 28; S 2 Togeth 9; M 4 Sep 11/14/08 EA OW1 Sep 08 EA OW2 Mar 09 EA OW3 Jun 10
