Dusk, I'm sorry you are upset. Can you tell us what the diagnosis means? Unless it's too upsetting - then don't. Are you seeing a C individually? Maybe that would be better than grp counseling now. And if so I'd call her & tell her you need an appt. ASAP. Maybe think about trying the grp thing & see how it goes.
IMO, I don't think you should contact H. I'm thinking of you & if he a negative or no reply I'm afraid you'll feel worse. you just don't need that right now. Try really hard to think of what will make you feel better right now. It's good you have a friend staying w you. Can you call other friends just to talk/vent? Do you have any family you can call to talk about this? Can you do something not too strenuous to treat yourself, see a movie, get a massage, soak in the tub, read gossip mags or whatever you like to do? By all means journal your heart out here, this is a safe space & we all care about you. You are in my thougths & prayers. (((((Dusk))))))
