You get points for being BBJ! You are doing, and have done, what you thought was right, at every juncture. You have shown forgiveness, love, compassion....
And still, he has rejected you. I know it's been said before, but he is broken. Looking at it in black and white, he is very broken, and has been for a long time. He didn't know how to love you, and never wanted to find out. On top of being weak and flawed, like the rest of us, he was selfish.
Get him served, and move forward with your life! In a dream, he would wake up. The evidence would suggest that in real life, not so much.
