I think the experiences we have had do have a lot to do with how aware we are not only of ourselves but how we fit into humanity. We all worked very hard not only to try to save our M's but also to grow. That is something most people don't really do because they aren't forced to. The majority of people operate on autopilot throughout their lives because that is the path of least resistance. Growing takes hard work and suffering and pain. They don't like that very much!
You are all the better for your experiences kat! Good on ya!
T19 M15 S19 XH47 M43 bomb12/4/07 PA5/07 S12/26/07 D final 11/17/08 Back together with no defined R 05/2010 confused....to say the least!!!
I read something that made me think of what you said:
Even if we confine our thinking to this life, it is true that God never touches the heart with a trial without intending to bestow a greater gift or compassionate blessing. The person who knows how to wait has grown to an exceptional degree in God's grace.
When the frosts are in the valley, And the mountaintops are gray, And the choicest blooms are blighted, And the blossoms die away, A loving Father whispers, "This all comes from my hand"; Blessed are you if you trust When you cannot understand.
If, after years of toiling, Your wealth should fly away And leave your hands all empty, And your hair is turning gray, Remember then your Father Owns all the sea and land;
Blessed are you if you trust When you cannot understand.
Hugs, WDID
(from a devotional entitled, "Streams in the Desert")
Thanks hon. I guess the crux of all of this is that I am becoming more spiritual. I am learning more about souls and karma and past lives. I am learning more about me and that voice that comes and calms me.
I have a long way to go but as I said I can't go back and I can't find the off switch. "It" floods my thoughts and I work to find a place for it so that I am not overwhelmed. I haven't mastered meditation at all as my mind loves to go off track and think of all the things I "might" or "should" be doing.
I don't feel as if I asked for this to happen but it did and now I am on this journey and don't they say that is half the fun?
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
Kat, Here is a quote from Billy Graham that I keep posted on the wall by desk. It sure inspired me through some rough patches and I still believe in it.
"Comfort and prosperity have never enriched the world as adversity has done. Out of pain and problems have come the sweetest songs, the most poignant poems, the most gripping stories. Out of suffering and tears have come the greatest spirits and the most blessed lives."
You, my dear, are doing great...hugs, Yoyo
Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who you are. -- Bernice Johnson Reagon
Maybe I have been in a bit of a fantasy land...ex is engaged. He didn't get another word out because I pushed out of the house and have been crying off and on. Yeah, I thought I was fine, over this. I am just a fool. And is he is just an @ss.
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
What did I expect? Maybe that at least he would come out of this and be a good Dad? I didn't ask when, I suppose there is time for that. What did he expect me to jump for joy or something?
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
I think in our heads we know that this day is coming but it still hurts our hearts. I feel your pain and I know this day is coming for me, too. I also know that I will feel the same way that you do right now.
Maybe there is just a bit of jealousy there.. It's not fair is it? Sometimes, it seems like we ended up with the short end of the stick, doesn't it?
I agree with mishka... have pity party and then get over it!
Do your kids know yet?