Ive been so depressed since yesterday. I went to see my dr and find out about test results and options etc. I am.....so scared I can hardly breathe. They found 1 lesion, not a def MS dx but... Im having a hard time coping. He wants me to go to counseling and join a support group to help me through this. I am going to follow his advice. Im not really sure how that will go, sometimes support grps can be so...negative...not always I know, but sometimes. I have someone staying with me for now. She is talking about moving in to my spare room, Im undecided. Im going to go over pros and cons and think about it over the weekend. Thankfully my ins is set, because NOW it will be almost impossible to get another policy without a exclusion. Im still covered under H's policy but i made his secondary before all the testing stuff started up. I cant remember who suggested that but ty. Financially, Im doing fine so far. As fine as can be in the economy.
I considered contacting my h and letting him know, but I dont think it will help and frankly, other than the ins thing which the hosp will file, there's really no "need". I guess I just want to talk to him. *sigh* I will stop looking for excuses to send him a txt or msg. I know its not helping me at all.
Im really trying to get myself cheered up. Just so hard right now.
Dusk
and no, he hasnt contacted or asked about me as far as I know. Im trying not to think about that. again, kinda hard right now.
