UPSIDE DOWN - still struggling, trying to detach

[Eskimo Nell]

I should be grabbing H by the throat - that's what I should be doing. Gucci is always thought provoking but it has left me feeling flat and empty today and I haven't felt like that in a few weeks.

I believe that things were going much better between H and I - the last visit certainly showed that - the evidence that HE wanted to come over this weekend was a baby step as far as I was concerned. Everyone else thought that was great so why does Gucci feel that it is wrong?? This is not cake-eating coming from H - he's not so much as touched my hand for months now and nor he will until ow is well out of the picture. I know him and I know that for sure.

I'm so confused

The Gucci way seems to say "it's my way or the highway" in any dealings with H .... I know what my H would do if I made it that clear to him and then I've lost him for good. That's not what I want to do. I feel that I can afford to coax him slowly for a little longer ... I know that I have some time and I am not going to blow this, even though I would like results so very much quicker.

Again - I'm so confused