After 30 Years!

[Lost Rabbit]

Had a great tap class again last night, really made me realise how much I'd missed it last week, next week is not on due to school break but Im looking forward to going back again. Its also rekindled my love of dancing and I would definitely like to go places where you can have a dance and a wiggle, although here in the uk places like that for the forty somethings are a bit limited, well not unless you really want to look like youre having a MLC lol!

Chatted with H on msn again last night after I got back from tap, I said hi first for a change and after his initial greeting he replied, let me just finish this and I can give you my full attention, interesting that he wanted to make me feel attended too lol, WOA/QT/PT are all pretty much on a par with me and I suspect with him too!

Somehow Xmas got mentioned and I said I was cancelling it, conversation got a bit muddled and in the end I said I just couldnt be bothered would rather go away, to which he replied I was thinking perhaps we could spend Xmas day together! So I laughed and said "Aus or H" let me think on that and left it hanging! Actually my absolute perfect Xmas would be H and I visiting Aus for Xmas, but with the dire money situ not likely! But crikey hes thinking of being with me in nine weeks time thats a biggy! Although he doesnt realise thats really is the expiry date Im not going into 2010 in limbo!

Well we got chatting about tonights date, and I agreed F&B (american bar) would be just the ticket, was feeling good and fancied a bit of fun, this led into a conversation about whats fun, so I replied, having a drink, dancing, good fun conversation and letting my hair down a bit. Which led to a very honest conversation from me about not organising things in the past as I didnt know if he was busy or not having the confidence to just go ahead and take the risk, he agreed too that he'd been the same and had often missed the boat on things, tell me about it Ive given up how many times Ive said that would be nice to do and guess what we didnt! But he certainly was left the impression that I DID want to go out and have fun and let my hair down a bit!

Non cold hasnt arrived still but thats good, just really want to have lots of fun tonight but keep me reserved a bit if you know what I mean, although he did make great efforts to point out he was coming to see me, well and BC (he didnt want to look too enthusiastic) and not using me as a hotel for his trains. Just dont get the NC thing as he seems so eager to contact once he see's me! arrgggh WAS who needs one lol!