Well, today I put in application number 20. For the cafeteria of the local hospital. Its really not about what I would like to do anymore, McDonalds is even starting to look pretty good. The sooner I find something so that I can secure my financial independence the sooner I can get my papers done and not be stuck anymore!

Honestly I think that if it were up to X he would just stay this way forever, its easier than dealing with it, and he has been super-lame about dealing with things his entire life. So Im not sure what kind of a reaction I will get when I send the papers to him.

I have actually started to wonder if someone isnt giving me a bad reference, I have an excellent work history, I interview well, this just isnt making sense anymore.

I guess I gave the wrong finger to the wrong man...