Hope and heartache

[ClingingToHope]

Thanks, Awest and Mishka, I'm feeling good about it, although I wish I'd been more business like and less emotional -- my voice rose with hers.

She's so eager to divorce and it's nights like these that I am as well. She doesn't have a clear sense of what it's going to cost her to divorce and once a plan is on paper then she can't try to call up and make additional demands.

Of course, she is feeling the heat at work -- although that may be in her head more than an actual reality -- and I do feel sorry for that. But I'm the only one who has pulled into a meeting and told I needed to take less time off for my kids.

Now I'm looking forward to my weekend. Working at a high school football game tomorrow -- $45, not much, but it all helps -- then going into Chicago Saturday night to see a friend and to Cincinnati on Sunday for the Bears-Bengals game.

W will be home with a sick child -- and another one going stir crazy. I may call and take D7 off her hands for a few hours Saturday morning -- if she allows it, she tends to stew when she doesn't get her way.

I'm actually more than willing to take a day off next week if one of them is sick -- but not if it's a demand. If she calls up and asks nicely if I can do it, I'll make it work. But she can't make demands.