Boy is sure is hard to feel sorry for yourself around here...thank goodness
Quote: Quote: How much encouragement do you require? What kind of sign do you need to see before you can feel sure that it is safe to breathe easy? You seem to be looking for some full, final confirmation of a recent success. Each time you see a small, potentially significant piece of possible proof, you want to subject it to a battery of harsh tests. In the process of doing this, you are effectively rejecting re-assurance. Save yourself unnecessary heartache and headache. Trust what looks good. It is good! And success now, is about THAT simple.
Okay I stole this from LL's thread!
I retracted emails from my SIL asking about OW, I guess I really don't care. SIL thinks he's a rat anyways for what he's doing. Anyways that's what she told me awhile ago.
H just called for a nooner, I told him I couldn't leave at noon, he said "see ya haven't changed" he was baiting me, I said I do have to work and noon is too early.
He was on his way to bowhunt. He's rained out today. We talked about a few things, he also brought up something I said awhile back when this all started, when I was angry and spewing to him about "living on my own longer than I've been with him and that I can get along fine." And that he thinks this is now what I want, to be alone. I said it wasn't true and that he was just assuming that was how I felt and then said he shouldn't assume anything. How is that he remembers this, yet not something I told him a week ago?
We then started talking about bowhunting in November and that I might take a few half days to go and H said no you're not I'm going to be up there and he didn't want me there. I said "that's not very nice" and he then said "well you don't want to do anything with me anymore" you want to do things separate? This is not true either, he always says no when I ask him to do things. My head is spinning, I don't know what I'm supposed/not supposed to do anymore.
The football game this Saturday. I originally told him I was going to take Son to the game, but didn't think I was going to take him now. H said then I'll take him, I said that would be okay you can have the tix. He said what will you do, I said I can find tickets if I want them. So here's what I'm going to do, since there is a single tix next to the two I have if H does say he wants to take S3 I'm going to suggest, again, that I go with them.
I guess one thing I really noticed today is if he thinks I'm being negative about something, he reacts that way to me--putting it back on me? Does that make sense. Our conversation started out a little rough, but smoothed out the longer we talked.
I asked if he was going to see son this week and he said I don't know you haven't told me what you were doing and if you were going to be there or not, like it should matter if I'm there, it hasn't in the past. Well towards the end of our conversation he agreed to stop by after bowhuting if it wasn't too late and then he said tomorrow night. I said oh good I have a hair appt. so that conversation ended good.
I said good luck hunting and we hung up.
Am I doing something wrong, why does he keep saying I don't want to do anything with him??
