Hey MJ... Sorry I haven't been around for a bit. Hope your spirits are high today. I liked how the other day you said "I woke up fiesty..." I love those days and have learned to really appreciate those moments when I am all about me!
Just my 2 cents on the "flowers" situation...I think its great that he noticed and actually went out of his way to actually write a note. "Congrats" ?? sigh... I would have done the same thing you did. Save the receipt, don't respond, let him wonder and just go on about your day!
You are doing great!! The OW...sounds...well...can't use the words I'm thinking heehee!
But, let me just say that things that start out in deceit and lies, don't have a very good chance....Try not to worry....she is not there for the long haul...doesn't even sound like she is the type to want to be there for the long haul.
I find that so many people have no understanding of "for better, for worse....till death do you part" you know what I mean?? It's like when it gets tough, the answer is to "get rid of it". Well, unfortunately, that does not solve the problem and I think its so short sighted....
Anyways, stay strong!! You are a warrior...having to share the same space with this version of H for over a year! Amazing!!
I'm also thinking about replying to H projection letter from last month. Just a short note that says...
" I have chosen to conduct myself with dignity and grace like a real lady should in the face of this adversity. If you have perceived it as anything else, my heart goes out to you."
I have been kinda' quiet lately, as there hasn't been much of a change around here. H is still wearing his choke chain, and she is still yanking on it! lol Something is changing in me though. A "whatever" attitude is setting in. Instead of holding on tight to this rollercoaster, I'm holding my arms up high and screaming "He's crazy, I'm better than this, and I'm not gonna take it anymore!"
On a lighter note... I'm thinking of becoming a cougar. There is an attorney that my friend would like me to meet. The problem is ........... He's ten years younger than me.
She reminded me about Demi Moore and Ashton Kutcher! lol
Hmmm . . .if I ever were in the position to be dating again I might go for somebody much older, someone well past the age to be likely to have an MLC. I do NOT want to go through this again!
No, I'm not going anywhere. Someone has to have morals around here.
The thought of someone holding me in their arms and loving me, is sure sounding good about now though. I've been going without, while H has been giving it to someone else.
The thought of someone holding me in their arms and loving me, is sure sounding good about now though. I've been going without, while H has been giving it to someone else.
Took the words and thoughts right out of my mouth and head.
May All Who Seek To Take My Life Be Put To Shame And Confusion; May All Who Desire My Ruin Be Turned Back In Disgrace. ~Psalm 40:14~
Aaah (((hugs))) After what we have been through, I really believe it will be somebody worth waiting for. Someone who will shake their head in disbelief when they hear how we've been betrayed. AND will love us even more for it. It might even be our spouses who can't believe what they've put us through. GOD is the one in control remember. We need to trust in him. I know, it's hard, but we just need to "be still".
When are you going on your trip? It will be so good for you!
I pray that it is our spouses (if that is what we really want) regardless of what has been said/done... I am ready to do the work needed however can't do it alone so I just work on me... I did try to go on a "friend" date with a guy I knew back in high school (along with some other people) and even though I warned him ahead of time where I stood with hubby and marriage, he had the gall to get mad at me because he wanted more then I was even ready to think about much less give... Said he has loved me since we were 16... I was the reason his marriage didn't work out... I ruined him for other women etc... Now get this I haven't spoken to him in over 20 years! All I could think was "Damn he is riding the same crazy-train as my hubby - Just not sure which one is conducting the train"...So that old/new friendship burned out real quick
As for my trip - I had to postpone it for now - I was supposed to leave on Halloween however the timing is just to off and my little one would probably have a coronary if I was out of his sight for more then 10 minutes.. Thank my H for that He freaks if I leave the house and once I calm him down enough to leave all I hear is are you going to come back? Yes I say - Today he says? It is heartbreaking and I am not selfish enough to take the trip and ruin what little stability he has right now. I did a lot of praying before I came to my decision and this is how I felt when all was said and done.
So I will stick to my walks after he goes to sleep and the little pieces of alone time I can cut out for myself... His well-being and the well-being of my oldest mean more to me then a few days in Maui.
(((Hugs)))
May All Who Seek To Take My Life Be Put To Shame And Confusion; May All Who Desire My Ruin Be Turned Back In Disgrace. ~Psalm 40:14~
heehee! 
