Thought I was over this

[C-Bart]

Not bad today. I spent the afternoon with my W doing school conferences. Its been a rough week for her and has drudged up a ton of guilt. She's feeling guilty about homework not getting done, kids being sick, etc. etc. I never realized how bad she is struggling. That doesn't translate to anything other than guilt. She has no incentive to take action. My hope is she will get some help working through her issues. She was seeing an IC before but that ended as soon as she figured out I was the problem.

One of the things that has struck me this week is that we are two very troubled people. Both of us have some serious issues to work through on our own if we are going to be healthy individuals. I'd like to think we could help each other but that probably doesn't make any sense. Somewhere I heard the analogy of the air masks in an airplane. Prior to helping someone else make sure your mask is on. Guess that's what I need to do.

I was doing fine until we talked this afternoon. She was opening up a bit to me and closing down at the same time. These conversations are exhausting. I can't do this for her and I can't stand to see her suffer. Think this may call for a boundary. Wish I didn't suck so much with boundaries.