Arwen-I really like you:) You are SO right. The truth is...I am scared. I am scared because what if I push him away for good. I am scared to be a single parent and what if I do not find love again. I am scared because I grew up so normal( well no one is normal..everyone has issues) and I want that for my kids. I do not want them to be shuffled around and have to deal with step family issues. It scares me. I do let him puppet me because I hurt. Honestly, I do not understand what I did to him that was so awful...why he hates me SO much and why did he stop loving me!I honestly do not know how to turn this around. Nothing I do seems to matter to him...he is not scared of losing me at all.
Stronger- I will read that book, that really shocks me because I was watching something on him and his wife the other day and I said to myself, how sweet, I wish someone loved me that much. Like I said above..I do not know how to change this mess around..because he could care less if I was in his life or not..he just does not want to lose the kids.
