Oh lordy, lordy. I was talking to my mom about what a hard time Im having with not being able to find work and she sent X a text message. She told him "She is having a really hard time financially right now, and its all your fault" So X sent me a message saying that I can have his PFD. And really, I dont want his PFD, I dont want to give him a chance to absolve ANY of his guilt I guess. But the truth is that I need it.

Im not upset that she did it, it was totally unprovoked by me. Im just really worried about what the heck Im going to do. I have been waiting for a certain job to be posted for about a month now, and it was posted today, while I was looking over the qualifications I realized that I was totally unqualified. So that lead to a sort of spiral... I really am starting to run out of options, I dont know exactly whats going to happen, but I keep applying, you would think that eventually somebody would hire me! I know felons who found work faster than this!

I do hope that she made him feel guilty! So Im feeling a little sad today, just worried I guess.

I guess I gave the wrong finger to the wrong man...