Wow, when you update you do it big! There's been a lot going on in your life!
I would do things different than what you are but you've got plenty of people telling you enough already.
You've been living your life physically without your H for so many years, have you thought about the reasons you would want to keep him or have him back?
Just like me, you've been reluctant to break any final ties with your H or make moves to really disconnect. Your H needs some major doses of reality!
Take care of you. (((amd)))
Live your life while you are still living. Riding the trail less traveled.
