The past couple of days have been hard. I do love my H very much and it is hard not to say that to him. I wish my marriage was not falling apart but there is nothing I can do. He does not love me and he does not want to be with me. Not sure what the cuddling stuff is about. I want to be married to him but right now he does not want to be a family. Not sure why he gets so upset when I ask him to leave. Is that not what he wants??? I still do not understand WHY oh WHY I am not good enough for him!
