Can I just say that my dial up connection at home is soooo slow and it takes me forever to read posts and to post. It seems exceptionally busy her this weekend with lots of good things happening to people!
Quote: I know that I did that and one other thing I have realized that I did a lot was use that "shell" to get attention from him. If I was mad or upset, I would go into my shell and then he would come after me asking what was wrong.
My H wouldn't even try with me, I don't ever remember him coming to me and saying what's wrong? I think he always thought it was about him. Or mabye not, I don't know we didn't communicate. After I found out about A H was having and people started find out, my whole life was out there for everybody to see, to judge me, to wonder what was wrong, I felt like I was the awful person when it all happened, but I never bad mouthed H. The thing that bothered me the most was that H was telling OW about me, about our private life--there are always two sides to every story and she only had his side!!! I admitted to my 50% to people and I used to never ever tell people personal things about myself. I was/am a private person. So at the point of the bomb I had to come out of my shell and have been out ever since.
