Quote: There is so much I didn't share with my H, I know it's too late now, but how selfish was I? To not be able to share my most intimate, personal feelings with the man I'm married too...well looking back it was all wrong and I should have trusted him more, should have opened up and I couldn't do that. I wanted him to be the one to open up to me to draw me out, but he couldn't that either. I'm learning that if I relax, if I be myself, if I let H be himself, than maybe we can have that openness, to be able to communicate more freely without taking everything H says personally or making it all about me...
Oh my gosh! that is me to a T! For years my H would say that sometimes I am like I'm in a shell and I only open it up so far so he could never see the real me.
I know that I did that and one other thing I have realized that I did a lot was use that "shell" to get attention from him. If I was mad or upset, I would go into my shell and then he would come after me asking what was wrong.
Why couldn't I just be up front and say it??
I guess these are the lessons we are meant to learn during this process.
And I thought your post made perfect sense! esepcially the part about NO WE WILL MEET UP IN THE END!!
