Living, Loving, & Learning one day at a time

[Treese]

Well everyone I made it through the 25th wedding anniversary...alone...a friend did come over, kept my mind off the day a little...I did wake up and cried....I had had a nightmare also that included H....now how weird is that..

MIL's bday was the day before...I sent her a card but got no response..guess I really didn't expect to..my mom's bday was yesterday..H never called her either...

So...do you all think that they go for others who are not as pretty as their wives or husbands? I mean Im not God's gift or anything but everyone that hears about us is like wow...I can't believe he left...you are gorgeous..don't worry you'll find someone in no time"....that's not what I'm looking for...I loved him with all my heart, I gave him the world...treated him like a king....I thought he loved me too..

That's what I cant seem to get past. I thought I was the world to him also...like he said, "I was the glue that held the family together".

I know I'm venting....and holding on....I'm just waiting for those papers to arrive...then we start all over with the depression...

Take care all...