Can I save my marriage?

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I agree with Puppy, Trent you are very good at this!
A little update. I feel like I made a tremendous step last night! He went out for a bite to eat after the boys were in bed and I went to sleep. When he got home around midnight, even though we didn't discuss it I assumed he was sleeping in the spare room. So he came into my room and sat down beside me woke me up and asked if he could sleep in our bed with me??!!! He hasn't been here for 3 weeks and just expects to sleep in our bed! The only reason he is staying here is because the boys are sick. Ugh. This is the hardest part. Its so hard not to read into this stuff! He made up some excuse how there was no blanket on the spare bed. Well listen up buddy you have lived here for 5 years, pretty sure you know where there are extra blankets! So I said no, and told him where to get a blanket! Very politely though. Yay! I was so proud of myself. And I think he was a little dumbfounded. He definitely did not expect that reaction out of me. As much as I wanted to say "Yes!" "please sleep here with me, hold me, cuddle me, kiss me!" I knew I couldn't. And I didn't. Now today I've tried to make my day as busy as possible, so that he can spend time with the boys and I can be gone. I feel if I spend too much time here I will get attached again, only to watch him leave sunday night back to his sis's. I'm trying to keep myself busy as much as possible and he is doing a great job of watching the kids on his days off. As I don't work so that's the kind of deal we made. But sometimes its hard. The "girls" don't want to go out every week. They want to do "couples" thinks as well. That's the hard part. I am not used to being the single wheel. I really appreciate all your help Trent. Now that somebody has taken me on I really appreciate your knowledge. You seem to have a lot! I look forward no to logging on here and hearing your uplifting words of advice! Thanks you so much...we'll see what today brings us.