leftandnowhy, Yes, I'm up early! Can't sleep; yesterday was an awful day! Read your threads and wonder where I belong? I don't belong here because H never said he wants to make M work! An old friend called me yesterday and her H left her last week. Called my H to ask him to go golfing with couple on Sat. said he was busy;sister and OW! So I did a bad thing and told him "maybe next year", that was like telling him to get screwed! Went over to be with friend and a neighbor on her block had tried to commit suicide yesterday. I can't sleep because my world is turning upside down. I'm just depressed. Thinking why do I keep trying to make this work with my H, am I wasting my time? If you get depressed in MLC forum; don't go there. I know how you feel, too much negative there. Tried to go over to hopefulness; but no one hardly posts there. Feel like running into a cave somewhere! Need to start thinking of positives. Need to start seeing baby steps again. Just venting. Deb
