Was that the "Controlling People" book? I had to go back a thread or two to find the reference...may check it out, too, along with that book where I found the poem from above.
I wound up on IM for about an hour with current match guy. We have IM'd four or five times and sent about that many emails. He is a runner, too. Younger than me, 32 to my 34, never married and no kids. Wants to go running some time next week. Some harmless flirting, nothing major. Fun diversion...
Feeling a little lighter this morning. I am sure it will come in waves as it always does, but I know I have a bright future. Just not sure what that will involve yet. And I have come to realize that Dan will have a hard time being happy, whereas I stand a pretty good chance of that...even if he finds a woman who does give him that "spark", he will always know he walked away from a wife who loved him. He will know he screwed with a lot of people's lives (mine, ow's, our kids, etc). I will know I did the best I could do so it is hard to have too many regrets about that!
Sandycay that poem hit home for me. It is so true. That is what I think I was getting at when I went to the hotel and wrote for hours. I know how to be friends, but not 'just friends', and in limbo I am expected (?) to be that good, convenient friend with no other strings. Just not something I can do right now...maybe down the road when I have a sexy husband at home??
