Hope and heartache

[ClingingToHope]

Problem with sleeping pills is that you have no energy the next day. Couple that with feeling I'm on the bottom of the roller coaster and I just want to lay on my couch and sleep all day.

But instead it's time to go into work.

I still find it surreal that I will be facing divorce soon. I'll leave the info on collaborative divorce at W's house tonight. Then I'll text her in a week to see what direction she's headed.

I'm feeling better about last night's talk and the fact I didn't break down and ask why she's doing this. She's hanging out with divorcees at townie bars. I don't know what enjoyment she'll find from that long term.

I just have to keep going. Keep grinding. Keep from falling into too much of a financial hole. And keep praying. Definitely keep praying that I can handle the path he is choosing for me.