UPSIDE DOWN - still struggling, trying to detach

[Eskimo Nell]

I do trust you Gucci but it's so hard. I can't help what I feel. I am trying - REALLY I am. I'm just hurting so much and yet trying to do the right thing - I'm so scared that this is running away too fast ..... I have no control over what I want to hold on to so dearly.

I honestly thought that I had been doing better and that's why H is prepared to come down again - two weekends out of three.