After 30 Years!

[Lost Rabbit]

Thanks Nell & Oz think it is the non cold talking, feel a bit better this morning think my allergies might be playing up as I had a nose bleed this morning so perhaps non cold is that? So I am gonna up my antihistimines for a few days and see if that helps.

On the H front, went on msn tuesday night saw him on there and left promptly, last night I went on there and stayed for a few minutes and he im'd me almost immediately saying "hello georgous" told him I didnt feel too cos of the non cold, after a bit of chit chat he said "oh well I was gonna invite you out friday but if you feeling poorly" my reply "really nice invite" to which he said he was trying to be compassionate and I told him to keep practising lol! I added that I didnt think he was interested and he replied its only wednesday, so I said that a girl liked to know early as she would want to know what to wear, and he replied but you might not need clothes! Its not all about s*x you know and he said no I know that s*x is nice but its still a date.

Chit chat went on and he told me that he would find it hard to find something nicer than the date I had organised, which I was chuffed with that he found it so enjoyable so perhaps he was just tired after all, and he really enjoyed and was suprised by the naughty post it note I.O.U's Said it wasn't a dating competion and being with him was nice! So do I assume he was just doing his "more of the same" leaving it to the last minute to organise a date? Well he can definitely do a 180 on that for me lol!

Part of the chit chat he mentioned that it was his lack of confidence and low self esteem talking, Im sure contract hunting and not finding anything is quite knocking to that, I have always bolstered his self esteem, well tried too but its obviously not helped, but makes my theory that WOA would be his first LL. He has had business/personal mentoring over the phone from a work colleague who used him as guinea pig when P started up his business but obviously H hid behind a wall? Also I probably didnt help on that one cos I did a few giggles of I could have told you that! oh the things we realise arnt helpful after the event.

So we agreed to play it low key cos of the possible non cold, and go to the american bar type restaurant, the one where I finally got some of my man back the first night lol, and if non cold kicks in maybe a curry at home or just in the local curry house.

Interesting he still wants to come despite non cold, swine flu and on a girlie note TOTM is due so s*x not available possibly, yet he doesnt contact me just catches me on msn. I did ask if he like me to txt him with a non cold update today which he replied would be very nice, so Im in a conudrum here, what do you folks think, dont want him to think Im available at his beck and call, or do all the running after him, but wondering if a bit more contact will bring him out of his shell.

Anyway off out shopping now will catch up with you all later x