Nell is so right, I remember being in those patches of thinking that I couldn't go on and wanted it all to end one way or another and all the other thoughts going through your head. It is a phase that we DBers go through and especially more so if you are unwell or run down and just sometimes, we feel down just because.
You have come so far and gone through so much, try to stick with it a bit longer. I most times felt better the next day after feeling like this. It is emotionally and physically draining what our H's put us through and DBing is not easy but it does get easier especially once you detach even a little bit.
Hang in there LR, we are all with you for the ride and I always found the words from others here when I was down kept me going. Take some time out and look after yourself LR, switch off for a bit and concentrate on just YOU and only YOU, it will lift your spirits and give you the energy you need to keep on going.
