You're right it is scary, but why with H? I can stand up for myself with pretty much everyone else in my life? Maybe because my friends/family will still like me, they might not talk to me for awhile, but they still like me. Most be my fear of rejection.
Right after my H left Saturday night, I desparately wanted to call him right away and say I was sorry, to see if he was made because I said what I said to him? But for what? for letting him call me names?
I just berate myself and feel awful for standing up for myself. I'd rather the other person feel good about themselves than myself? I cannot believe how hard I am on myself.
And now he hasn't called or made contact since. He's mad, he's blaming it on me, I'm the bad guy. How do I know this? Because this is what he does to S19. S19 is learning to stand up to his dad, he did tell him one time that he ever called him stupid or names again he wouldn't talk to him and then H turns it around and will say "I don't care if I ever talk to Son again as far as I'm concerned I disown him. H will not call S, but if S calls him to talk, then all is well with H again and Son is back in his dad's good graces....
