Moving merrily down the tunnel

[Augtan]

Great ideas D Money...but I was 18 when we started dating and totally a child, married him when I was barley 21!! I think the first thing that attracted him to me was who I was...that is hard to explain, but lets just say my Dad was well-known and everyone on campus knew who I was, just by my last name. Anyway, I really was nothing like I think he would want me to be now. And, it makes me upset that is the reason he pursued me, as I hate that someone would like me for that reason, but it was always a problem. He was just better at hiding it than most. I can't even imagine being like I was then, but I will try to think of positive things from that time and see what I can come up with. I was a huge flirt and tease...he can't see that even if I wanted him to since he is 700 miles away.

But, I am excited about something...we talked tonight and he told me he is going to go to counseling starting next week!! I just pray that it is the right therapist that is well versed in MLC's!! I felt so good about how I was on the phone with him, I am very proud and it felt so good whether it works with him, I don't care, it is about me, and I felt the change in how I was and that is all that matters.

I am so glad your D12 is doing better. And, it sounds like regardless of feeling like you want to throw-up (been there!!), you handle it well. Do you find yourself acting like you did when you were dating? And, do you see any reaction to this? You sound so upbeat on here too, you are doing really great!!

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