Cathy,

Drop the whip and step back several paces from it.

Don't continue to beat yourself for this past weekends confrontation. YOU were well within your rights to stand firm on YOUR boundaries and your refusal to be spoken to like an emotionally abused child by your H.

If that made HIM angry...to bad so sad....he'll get over it. DON'T apologize for having personal boundaries, to ANYONE.

Also, welcome to the Zig Zag Club. You are now a member in good standing with others, like myself, who say/feel one thing one minute and then say/feel something completely different the next. IT'S ALL PERFECTLY NORMAL.
Hugs 2 U
T2