Well, she moved out on Sunday. Over the weekend we had fun with the kids. Sunday I told her I wanted to make a special dinner for her and the kids helped me buy the ingredients.
So we spent the day together Saturday, Sunday we went to see Where the Wild Things Are (of course the kid's parents are D) and she came over to have dinner. She left soon after.
I could tell she was getting distant again. Needless to say, the kids were devastated, so I took the remaining night reading them stories.
I have to say, I was much more "in control" than I was in the past. She gave me a preliminary custody agreement that gave us split the kids Monday-Tuesday one parent and Wed. - Thurs. the other with Fri-Sunday alternating. I laughed at that and said she must've been kidding since that only gave one of us 2 days with them. So I recommended Sun-Tues. (me) Wed.-Fri (her) alternating Saturday. We agreed to try it out.
It's so sad that we have to treat our kids like "property" and not human beings. I took off Monday and Tuesday to give them support. Throughout the day, I would call her to let her know what was going on. I did have a talk with her saying that she should be the one calling the kids to see how they were doing rather than me doing so. At least to show them that she cares. Right now they feel a little abandoned.
I sent her an email today saying that she should get more involved with them. And that it seemed like when she doesn't have them, she doesn't ask about them. Kind of like once they're away from her, they aren't her responsibility any more. Total compartmentalization.
When it comes to NC, she's one of the best. She won't call unless I do.
I'm really going to miss the kids tonight. It is tough going home to an empty house. I think I'll head over to the Borders to get some meditation CDs to help relax. As a whole I'm feeling pretty good. I might stop by the gym too.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
