I can really understand all your feelings about the whole idiotic crime that our partners are doing to us. I am now at the stage of struggling to survive. I have been told numerous time to be strong and attractive in myself but these are easily said than done. I am not even strong enough mentality cos of my depression, so I really don't know how I can be stable. I just find that our betrayal partners are pushing us to deadend, didn't even want us to survive with pride. I have been mentally and physically drained and have no energy to move on with life. Is that what they want from us?
My H told me this morning that he wants the family and I told him I will not allow him seeing another woman if he chose this path. He told me he wants the marriage and the kids (this was about 2 weeks ago when the bomb started) but until yesterday he still having sex with the OP. So what does he means by wanting the marriage and the kids. He just couldn't accept the fact that he will lose his kids while he still want the enjoy the fantasy outside.
Moments ago, I have planned to end my life but moments now, I planned to rescue myself and I want to punish him. Irregardless whether he repent or not, it doesn't mean anything to me cos he is the one forcing me to dead end. I want to stand firm and show him I can be strong without him and when the time he wants my forgiveness, he will not get it. I want him to know what is it like to go through this pain. He needs to learn his lesson.
