8 months into it, first post

[EJohn]

Earlier this week, I made it sound like I had a girlfriend, jokingly. This morning, we were emailing back and forth about the school halloween party on Friday, and she jokingly asked if my girlfriend was coming. I flat out told her that I just said that because she has a boyfriend, and that it'll be a long time after our divorce is final before I'd consider anyone a girlfriend. This is her response:

"The situation with the BF is as follows....he is useful, thats it. I have told him many times I am not looking for a "commitment" and I do talk and spend time with other ppl...date so to speak.
I would rather we NOT go through with the divorce at this time. I have no issues in canceling the $160.00 a month or whatever. $$ means nothing to me....I want to wait.
I want u to date and hang with other woman."

So I'm supposed to date other people so she doesn't have to feel guilty?

I told her that she would have to talk to her lawyer because I told mine to proceed (which I did). She actually called hers. We'll see if I get a call from mine about it.

I just have this feeling that she still thinks it's ok to run around, and that I'll just take her back when she's done playing. It's like she has this evil plan, and if she waits it out a while longer, she'd have more ammo in the divorce. I still want to keep my family together, but I thinks it's in my best interest to proceed with the divorce. She might be one of those that will only wake up once its reality.