I did not ask for 6 months. That was her idea. She said it was over and wanted a divorce and was all business about it with custody and splitting of assets. After losing my mind for 2 weeks, I gave her a heartfelt apology for what I did to contribute to our problems. Between my genuine recognition of my mistakes and people in her support system telling her to be sure before she ended it gave her pause. So she has agreed to MC but has put in little effort since. She is also in regular contact with OM who she says is just a friend, but I suspect an EA. I am coming to terms with the fact that she does not love me. I am eating better, losing weight, running everyday and trying to detach. I have my bad days, and some really bad days, and sometimes I fall into R talk which never turns out well, so I am focusing on no talking, not giving up but not holding out to false hope at the same time. It is quite the tight-rope but I am just letting my heart break and focus on taking care of myself and the kids. I have read DR and trying to apply all the principles. W does not respond well when I act too independently...she gets suspicious and I feel goes into retaliation mode, so I am trying to be warm from a distance. The problem is that I still love her so much that I just want a hug! Trying to be patient, which is probably the hardest part for me. Giving her space is getting easier because I honestly don't think she can hurt me that much more than she already has. My changes are for me and I know I am growing and getting stronger, even though it hurts a lot. Thanks Dburt!
