i'm still around,anxious and really depressed, can't even describe the pain it's bad.
I have not contacted MLC since last wk.
I didn't realize how depressed I really was until last night and this morning was real bad. It really hurts when the person you put ahead of everything is coming after you for everything,crushes your future,plays the kids as pawns,stole everything that mattered from me and does not care.
My atty called me today,I'm doing the right steps,but I'm strugglin with anxiety and my normal listening process she's worried about what I'm going to say at the court and MLC's atty is very mean she said and will try to rattle me. New goal roleplay and practice relaxation techniques.I need to find myself quick.
It is hard to process and believe. Such a nasty process, this legal stuff. I totally understand. Try to keep your balance, and like everyone always says, treat the legal stuff as business. Very hard, I know. Find your balance again. You were sounding so much better. You can do this.
"Success is the sum of small efforts, repeated day in and day out." Robert Collier
"One's best success often comes after their greatest disappointments." Henry Ward Beecher
Some of what I found out wife has said about me. 1.She cared for me more than I cared for myself. 2.Moved from "Mom's house to her house." 3.I didn't help with shopping,transporting kids,bills. 4.She feels we're complete opposites,I like to be home,she likes to go out. 5.I'm compulsive 6.She could never communicate with me. 7.She felt she was my only sole supporter,that i counted on her to make myself happy. 8.I worked too much and we never did things together. 9.She married her father. 10.She has no good memories of our marriage. I'm not taking that one literally. 11.Had to see if she could accept a man that would not change. 11.Day she emailed me she filed, asked when I was going to take blame and that I need to make commitments to kids???
Some of what I found out wife has said about me. 1.She cared for me more than I cared for myself. 2.Moved from "Mom's house to her house." 3.I didn't help with shopping,transporting kids,bills. 4.She feels we're complete opposites,I like to be home,she likes to go out. 5.I'm compulsive 6.She could never communicate with me. 7.She felt she was my only sole supporter,that i counted on her to make myself happy. 8.I worked too much and we never did things together. 9.She married her father. 10.She has no good memories of our marriage. I'm not taking that one literally. 11.Had to see if she could accept a man that would not change. 11.Day she emailed me she filed, asked when I was going to take blame and that I need to make commitments to kids???
Family doc and family think it's over and to quit...
I think I'll just cry around family and quit trying to defend my wife. The moment I say it's not my wife, they all say yes it is, she's moved on, you've grown apart.
It's like I'm the only one that knows how good my wife was and how good I was and how much better I can be.
My gut has told me she's done, but my gut keeps telling me I can save this.
I am definately not pursuing her and I all I emailed when she said she had filed, I just emailed back you're making a mistake, then I've ignored everything since then.
