Sorry I haven't posted in a while but I have been lurking and reading and following along with how things are progressing.
I feel you have a better hold on your emotions now which is so important especially for when you see H on the weekend. Remember what H needs to see is the confident, fun gorgeous Nell that H first met, one who didn't pursue or get angry or anything like that.
Make everything as casual as possible when H arrives, it is hard I know but you need to come across as very relaxed not on edge or uptight. So I agree with what Sanderika said, make sure you take some time out before he arrives to ensure you are in a relaxed easy state of mind - this is very important especially if you feel your emotions might get the better of you.
You mentioned a bit earlier in one of your posts that your H responds better if he doesn't think you are "playing games", that is exactly what my H said to me when he was at his boiling point just before we had our big conversation. He did not like game playing and felt that that was what I was doing, you have to tread a bit more careful with the ones who think like that as I found out the hard way.
In any case Nell I think you are now doing so much better than you were a couple of weeks ago and that in itself will show to your H even if you don't think it will.
