I have no idea what he will choose, and you can't control it. And even God Himself can't force it upon him, for He gave us all free will, right?
My advice to you would be that -- now that you have laid out your primary boundary ("I will not live in an open marriage") -- you need to convey STRENGTH to your husband, and that YOU TOO have some decisions to make, in light of his infidelity.
Once you told him that, you should have just SHUT UP and not gone all "needy/grabby" on him. It's not going to work if you come across to him like a pathetic lost little puppy, hoping "Oh please choose ME! Please choose ME!" He has torn a whole right in the middle of your heart, and blasted a bigger one in the middle of his family, all because of his own confusion, entitlement and selfishness. He needs to know that you can forgive him, yes, but he also needs to feel the FULL WEIGHT of that Choice.
Does that make sense? Can you look back on your post, and see what I mean?
It's okay, it's over now, but please PULL WAAAYYY BACK now. The ball is in his court.
