How did I get here?

[wanttobebetter]

No she is telling me she wants the space. She is carrying a TON of guilt and says she needs to figure out why she did the things she did and how she can overcome and live with her BP. She wants to date and all those good things....BUT we are now not staying together during the week, her rings are off, she does not call/text during the day like she did...

I can't imagine what is going through her head, only mine....and honestly, I don't like this. I feel like I get pulled back into the fire weeks ago, learned so much, forgave her and we started working on things only to have her say STOP. Maybe it is the right thing but I feel like she has all the control now and I have none. I am going to work on getting myself back together and in control of myself but in the meantime I don't know what to do.