Is this the end of my marriage?

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Remember, "BAD = GOOD" and "GOOD = BAD" in these situations. If she were in a particularly GOOD mood (esp. one that's kind of different than the good moods she used to get into with you), then I'd say she had her OM fix. But a BAD mood would mean she's not at all happy with the way her plan is progressing, either with you or OM, or some combination of the two.

Just coming back to this. It's actually incredibly easy to tell if my W is in a good mood as she glows, she smiles (she has a beautiful smile) and really does light up the place.

She apparently still does this at work but she always has done (she admitted this herself that no matter what is happening she is always happy at her work - she works with customers directly so no use if she's down). Whenever we had sex and she went to work she always said she glowed too (I'll keep the rest of what she said to myself :-)).

When I've seen her here she's certainly not glowing, not lighting anything up and certainly not smiling! If I was a betting man I'd bed that what I see is correct - she is deeply unhappy, whether by guilt, her situation, second thoughts or her plan is not progressing as it should it doesn't actually matter. The outcome is the same.

So BAD = GOOD ...