I am at a place where I am trying to convince myself that there is really order, I just can't always see it! lol(Like at my house). Keep coming back to Faith. Not religion, just faith. I realize that not everyone is going through this metaphysical stuff like I am which is fine. However it is pretty lonely when so few people know what you are talking about. Just because someone is older doesn't mean they understand what I am going through. Not even my own Mom gets it.
It is sort of like a switch being turned on and you begin to have a greater understanding of this thing called life. Sorry, I prattled on when you asked a simple question.:)
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
I don't understand the metaphysical stuff at all, but I can understand the comfort and confusion in it.
If I understand correctly, you seem to be saying that you are just starting to realize how everything we do, say, react to, is interwoven and how we choose to handle that will affect the next step. Am I overthinking this? I tend to do that.......:)
T19 M15 S19 XH47 M43 bomb12/4/07 PA5/07 S12/26/07 D final 11/17/08 Back together with no defined R 05/2010 confused....to say the least!!!
Actually a bit more than, the connection between souls that can wreck havoc on your day to day life, especially when you are at two different places in the process of recognizing that connection.
Yes, everything is interwoven. I am speaking of an awareness level. It changes you somehow. You can't go back to being unaware. Also it affects your understanding of your personal karma and that now you need to find what you are really supposed to be doing with this current life. I know I sound crazy!
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
Tried to edit but timed expired. Oh well, it is kind of like sensory overload for me right now. Just getting so much information and trying to sort through it. I almost feel as if I have two realities going at the same time: day to day stuff and then trying to figure out how this fits with it.
Hopefully I am making some sort of sense.
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
I mean as I get older I do become more aware I think (hope). Not sure if it's exactly the same as yours. But I kind of feel like I was on automatic pilot in my life before the D bomb. And now actually feel like I'm a lot more present and conscious in my own life. Is that kind of the same? Probably not. I dunno.
This switch kind of "turned on" if you will, in August. Yes I have become more aware since all of this crud with the divorce but this is something else. Not trying to sound uppity about it, but it is difficult to describe.
I wish I could speak about it intelligently, right now it is more experiencing it and trying to find the right words. Thanks for not thinking I have lost it.
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
I tend to do that.......:)
