I am at a place where I am trying to convince myself that there is really order, I just can't always see it! lol(Like at my house). Keep coming back to Faith. Not religion, just faith. I realize that not everyone is going through this metaphysical stuff like I am which is fine. However it is pretty lonely when so few people know what you are talking about. Just because someone is older doesn't mean they understand what I am going through. Not even my own Mom gets it.
It is sort of like a switch being turned on and you begin to have a greater understanding of this thing called life. Sorry, I prattled on when you asked a simple question.:)
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory