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[awest1217]

Finally getting over the snooping. I am realizing it is just making me unhappy so what is the point. Also I am working on my control issues so unless I happen to fall onto it, which I have at times, I not going to go looking because I control others through knowledge and know likes to be around someone who controls them. I am letting go a little at a time. Including not showing H how much it bugs me and S that he has left, I am just going to act as if everything is great and we are fine, although it still hurts and S is back sleepign with me, including not sleeping unless he is touching me or I am touching him. I think it is a way of making sure mommy is there. I feel really bad for him. He just was getting used to H being home and now he is gone again. NEVER AGAIN. Next time H asks to come home, I will be laying down some major ground rules. Number one NO MORE LEAVING. If even think might not work, then don't come back.

Still very tired, but I am sure a week of normal sleep will help.