Newbie (again)

[dday101798]

Some one want to give NCB a flea bath?

Anyway.

Session yesterday was complete opposite of the first. The first was all questions by the shrink. This one was more I lead the dialouge, suffice it to say, there were many silent times of the sessions. Addressed the mood of yesterday, shrink pins it on the call in the morning and XW's denial to let me pick S11 from school when he was told to go home last Friday, coupled with not hearing from them for a week.

We really spent a lot of time focusing on the kids being ripped out of my life and how that plays upon my own repressed 'childhood'. That was pretty painful and got the session cut short. Heh, next session is 'dedicated' to exploring my upbringing. That boys and girls, will be VERY interesting.

And now for the latest demonstration of pure flippen laziness and lack of parenting: XW has the brass to text ME if I know what assignments S11 has that are do. Umm, hello, you said you were going to the school to find out? The school that is only not even 4 blocks from where you live, and 4 houses from 'our house' that it sounds she frequents almost every day now! Unfricken believable.

So O looked itup online and got all his assignment. Oddly, communication from the teachers has dwndled, now I know why. When assisting S11 with his homework, yes, I had to assist a child OVER THE PHONE with his homework while the "custodial parent" did god knows what, he slipped and said "how do you know this all my work? Are the teachers STILL e-mailing you?".


Hence I believe XW stuck her self in the situation with yet another lie and requested the school not contact me anymore. Fits the bill, but why then text me when you're too god blasted lazy to handle things as the parent you claim YOU ARE?

Uggh, she really pisses me off to no avail.

Anyway, I did 'fib' and say, "yes, of course, why wouldn't they e-mail me?" No response. Then he and S12 later on both inquired as why I didn't answer the phone earlier, I said doctors appointment. S11 was really curious to know for what. All I could say was, "well you know, jsut one of those things". Then he asked what I was doing for the rest of the night. I thought about 'their curiosity' about what I did over the weekend and who I was with, and the stench of XW entered the room. So I played it off, said "I might clean up and go to bed, but I'm supposed to go out." Heh, mission successful, they kept asking where and with whom. And I repeatedly dodged it and changed the subject something more apporpriate.

Dating, you know, I've dabbled my toes in the water twice and both have ended up being nutbags who the moment I turn my head were with someone else, wow, that's real reassuring. So, if it weren't for my cousin's dog, I'd be on my way to the shelter to adopt one. Only problem is, I know me staying single is only an ego boost to XW for her just to think that I'm not because her reasoning would be becasue I'm still wrapped up in her. Not. I am wrapped up in wht I lost with her, but not her.