Nope, I, for one, can tell you I KNOW what it means. I suspect everyone else here would say the same. B/c, in one form or another, we've all been there. And I think that's why the people here really want to help.
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I am working on being treated like an equal adult, not an abused child!
Start by having enough self-respect to stand up for yourself - and you are doing this. He won't respect you if YOU don't respect you. If you perceive (and act like) you are not worthy of others' love and respect, then you won't receive it.
And, don't blame yourself for the problems in your M. You are 50% of the reason why you're here. No more, no less. Forgive yourself, make any needed changes and move forward.
What can you do to work on your self-esteem? Maybe a new outfit? Maybe new perfume? Something to make you feel nice and appreciated.
Be aware that he is probably going to keep testing you. Expect it so that when it happens, it doesn't rattle you. As long as he can get a reaction out of you, he will keep doing it. Once you stop allowing him to affect your mood, then he looses power over you. Take it back. Believe in yourself.