thank you for the support--what now--well I am trying to stay focused and GAL--joining support group through church so have someone to talk to--also joining a "girlfriend club" that does activities so I get out. Very conflicted about whether to be "darK" or call. I did call tonight to talk about the weekend--he is staying at house to watch dog while I go visit our daughter. He said over the phone that he enjoyed being with me Friday, staying over, and Saturday together and "didnt he act like he did?" I said "yes he did seem to enjoy the time with me and I did too but I couldnt be sure as I not sure anymore when he is being honest?" He said "well he could understand that as he hadnt been honest with me but he really did enjoy being with me this past weekend." I am taking that as positive. I am not going to call again but left food in fridge for 4 days and I think I will write a note asking him to stay Sunday night ( I fly in late Sunday night) so we can talk about our daughter who is hurting about all this. He is very very confused and unclear about what he wants so this just maybe another lie and his way of letting me down slowly. I feel so much stronger that whatever happens I will be okay. My C says I need to work on small things like slowing my speech down, not interupting at all, letting there be silences in the conversations and even doing something very "big" and out of character like a tattoo or sky diving to show him he wont be with the same woman he wasnt happy with before. This is so hard as I feel like I dont know the man at all.
