How did I get here?

[wanttobebetter]

Well I am getting the pull back. I knew it was coming I guess. After spending what I thought was quality time together since all this crap happened, the past few days have been her at her apt and me at the house. She is trying to slow things down when I don't necessarily want to. Probably is the right thing but we all know how hard that can be to do.

I feel like when we spend time apart it makes it easier to be apart. We can talk about this and I do not get angry about it but talk calmly. I guess I just don't know what I really want.

I am reading a book I picked up today...can't remember the name but the subject is being addicted to someone. It makes some sense and I wonder it I have some issues with trying to make something work no matter what the cost - regardless of whether or not I get anything out of the relationship.

Until tomorrow...