It's been a while since I posted but I've been keeping up.
I want you to know that I can relate to what you are going through. H and I have been Piecing for 5 months now and I am still very guarded. It's extremely difficult to let go of the images of H and OW. Many little things seem to be a trigger. Months later I am still haunted by the things I discovered about my H. My moods change very rapidly. Some moments I think I made the right decision in taking him back and then at the drop of a hat I question my decision.
Many people will suggest to simply "choose to forgive". I have found it's not that easy. Forgiveness is a process. At this time, I'm not at the point where I can forgive H. Maybe one day I will get there.
Kalni, I understand your hesitation. You are right to keep up your guard and take things slow.
Me47 H46 S13 M16 Piecing since May/09
"Life is 10% what happens to us and 90% how we react to it." Lou Holtz
